Got lean in my right hand. cocaine on my left But Do I understand the thoughts I'm thinking Is this really real or am I tripping Did I ever think that someone like me would find himself Hooked on all these drugs. I said that I would stop When it would get dangerous, but the warnings were not enough When I got the drugs he forgot to give me the list of consequences Wasn't even thinking about the future Too busy living the present All it took was just the one hook Now it got me addicted for life Even if I could go back in time, I'd still probably wrong all my rights The preachers don't lie They said that the devil has many disguises Some are subliminal, and some are sublime To give you that euphoric feeling to let you know what you missing And only then you can see what's that look in their eyes Some wanna be hypnotized Some wanna escape their own lives F it. I'll take my death to the platter Please put my sui to the cide It's funny how it happened everything went by so fast Asked me if I wanna hit, I was thinking I should pass, but I wanted to fit in What other choice did have Tell my family I'm sorry But it's all over I'm just too far deep to try to get sober No it's not worth it Cause there is no happy ending I'm asking who will save me If I die, who'd miss me This my destruction Cause there is no happy ending I was tripping on that cocaine, molly marijuana Three years later, I'm back at it with these old habits When I'm stressed out I use white magic It's a sad story, yeah it's tragic that my mom found out I'm a drug addict Mixed pills, hard high, long day means extra lines Death no longer applies to me cause I done O Ded for the 3 time Another day another death that's just the way it goes Feeling out of place With no directions to guide me back home I was that upper class man I was the one with the future at hand, but look at me now Everyone looks at me down Everyone judge but don't know my background