Forgive my tears I feel like I have lived a hundred years I can't tell if I have conquered my fears Or if I just don't care anymore The end of the scene This isn't how I pictured it in my dreams If you had asked me when I was 16 I thought I'd have figured out so much more I miss the days, when life Was simple and free When I could dance with my sisters In the autumn leaves When life felt so permanent And love didn't have to be earned Oh I had hope 1000 miles and 15 years ago There were times I didn't feel alone And I tried so hard to make them last I thought I knew Good decisions, yeah I made a few But then things fell apart like they tend to do When you spend all your time in the past There were times I thought That I'd won the fight It was stupid and wrong But at least it felt right Then I watched all my confidence Flush down the drain From two decades in a torrent of pain Now I'm scared to think What another might bring So I turn the page Another chapter in my tragedy I'm just a player and the world is my stage And the show must go on The show must go on