Now I think a lot, more than I say I been on my sadboi shit all day And I smoke a lot, just to feel okay I been on my sadboi shit all day Now I think a lot, more than I say I been on my sadboi shit all day And I smoke a lot, just to feel okay I been on my sadboi shit all day All day, every day, is it ever gonna end someway? I'mma go for a walk, okay? 'Cause I gotta get away before my momma say "hey what's wrong?" Then I tell her I don't know But by the end of it, I'm already on the go Fighting back tears 'cause I don't like to show How it really feels knowing that I'm alone I, just want a little more Thinking 'bout nights that I slept on the floor Thinking 'bout nights I was up 'til 4 Making sure that you were alright to the core I, should've thought about myself Then I would've been like you, no help Then I would've dealt with the burden I felt Because I don't deserve to be living in hell But I guess you got what you need Attention and validation, you bleed Out desperation and you don't see All of it so you blame it on me I guess it's my fault that you fucked up And never moved on before we hooked up And I should call all of this good luck But it hurts so bad that I wanna give up And I shouldn't have to wake up and cry 'Cause I thought about how I used to die A little inside as the days go by 'Cause you made me out to be the reason why Now I think a lot, more than I say I been on my sadboi shit all day And I smoke a lot, just to feel okay I been on my sadboi shit all day Now I think a lot, more than I say I been on my sadboi shit all day And I smoke a lot, just to feel okay I been on my sadboi shit all day