I am not afraid of love I am terrified That history repeats itself as it's won't to And I am not a child of God I am rent and cast aside And thrown into this world like everybody is Whether or not they want to They can see me hiding At any time at all She takes a pill and then She leads me to her room Am I a man now She sleeps contently while I'm putting on my clothes Am I a man now She buys my tears and then She gives me what I need Am I a man now She is the seventh one In just as many days Am I a man now Am I a man now They can see me hiding At any time at all There is a tree near my house where I learned What a monster could do to a target like me And there's a building nearby where I learned How much blood I can spill just by hitting a wall all over again I've tried so hard to keep my distance from that day I crave consent like a drug, or leave my hands to myself It's only yesses, and pleases and come ons and whys Why don't you want it? Oh no, why don't you want me They can see me hiding At any time at all