I hit the beach, feet in the sand It's getting hard to be a man I take a walk to clear my thoughts And put my trust in God's Hands I'm at the bottom of the bottom Get on my knees and raise my hand Anxiety fucking with me I'm being positive as I can Let the water drown my thoughts Let the water drown my thoughts Can't let that pain take me out I let the water drown my thoughts Let the water drown my thoughts I'm happy I made it out Finally making it out I'll see you on the other side I'm kicking depression ass And it ain't like them other times Remember calling Zand crying Telling her I feel like dying She sit on the phone and listen Always felt like some was missing This shit gets hard to bear And if you ever been depressed Then you know telling somebody what's on your heart is rare Whenever I take my meds I get stuck and start to stare Stressing all my life I'm starting to lose my hair They gave me so many meds Taking like 18 a day I was on that drink so much Might as well just throw my liver away Ended up crying out of nowhere Tears down my face I get a call, clear it up And throw a smile in place I hit the beach, feet in the sand It's getting hard to be a man I take a walk to clear my thoughts And put my trust in God's Hands I'm at the bottom of the bottom Get on my knees and raise my hand Anxiety fucking with me I'm being positive as I can Let the water drown my thoughts Let the water drown my thoughts Can't let that pain take me out I let the water drown my thoughts Let the water drown my thoughts I'm happy I made it out Just hope I don't get too deep When I'm stepping into that water Suppressing on my anxiety Trynna get my thoughts in order I'm trying to drown my thoughts And keep myself from going under Know it's crazy to even think this way Sometimes I wonder What it'd be like if I leave Would I still have problems And would I grieve Would these people regret what they done to me And if I had a funeral Would you even come to see Heartbreaks and heartaches That's all you cause Funny how you want some Each and every time you call I put the blame on myself Every time I fall When you in need they disappear But they need, you give your all