It's dark and night, I hear the shadows of death haunting me Just clear my mind, the whispers in my head are taunting me Sad and scared, is this really what I was born to be I'll just "be a man", the same thing I was taught to be I see my mates, I wonder when they'll get bored of me Filthy with sin, tryna clean myself like laundering Someone save me, I need help I'm sick of dealing with pain by myself The devil said he's taking me down to hell But I know that I deserve it so I'm compelled Trapped in my room but my mind is a portal I sold my soul and now I'm immortal The Devil calls, wonder why he call for No opportunity there's just closed doors So here I am again, I'm having Deja Vu The Devil in my head and he tell me imma lose Death is my destiny, the Devil is dead to me I feel like I'm God, No body come check on me See pain in my eyes, I cannot cry Life I despise, I must not survive The devil tells me grab the blade life doesn't get no better Tell me why, people die, so others make some cheddar Relapse, Then Recovery, it's all in his plan My mind feels so stuck, like it's a gun jam I took the wrong path now I'm smoking sticks of cancer I don't look at God cuhs the Devil has my answers Now my mom hates me, all my friends too Four thousand songs couldn't say what I been through Portal to the underworld, keep hiding in the flock Had a few free minds but the world is outta stock If you saw the truth, have a body full of shock But the truth is coming out, are you ready, are you not Are you ready for the truth? Is it bumpy, is it smooth The one thing of truth is I'm running outta youth Drugs make me soothe, I ain't ready for the truth Said the one thing of truth is I'm running outta, youth