I have intrusive thoughts like all of the time and They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich I think I'm choking on em, maybe I'm spineless To never reach out, well inside I'm Up and wired, drinking all of this caffeine I'm too tired, don't got a sense of a routine Well, it's made me lonely to be like the only one that's up at 3 And tho chemically I'm missing like a ton of shit I brush it off and tell myself: get over it It can't be that hard, to rinse and restart Just fake a smile, laugh, and repeat But it's hard to fake it in the this situation I keep getting so caught up I need to get help, or maybe some luck coz I have intrusive thoughts like all of the time and They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich I think I'm choking on em, maybe I'm spineless To never reach out, well inside I'm Melting down, till I'm trapped and I'm lonely But I don't really give a f*ck if you know me I've Gotten this far, I get that it's not smart To keep everything inside me locked up Been jaded for a while, isn't it obvious? It's going out of style, can't fall coz the audience Would pick me apart, I'll stick with my heart Working at the end of the day So ill keep whispering the mantra, under my breath, Won't look too deep into the things that they said Cause the feeling ain't mutual, i'd go to the funeral And pay my respects, coz chivalry isn't dead But it's hard to fake it in the this situation I keep getting so caught up, I need to get help, or maybe some luck coz I have intrusive thoughts like all of the time and They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich I think I'm choking on em , maybe I'm spineless To never reach out, well inside I'm Melting down, till I'm trapped and I'm lonely But I don't really give a f*ck if you know me I've Gotten this far, I get that it's not smart To keep everything inside me locked up But everything inside me's locked up